My Current Life

Its has been a long time i didnt update my blog. Recently not that happy in my life. Busy with assignments, presentation and so on..

Recently met you and contact back with you, cant describe my feeling. I dunno am I happy when I see you or during that time what is my feeling? I really dunno. What I know is just I wish to help you for everything. I still loving you? I dunno. I really dunno...

At last I finish all my assignments and presentation. Now is time to start study for my final exam. Media Law, International Politics ... damn it.. how can I memories all the notes?? I HATE MEMORIES THINGS!!!

Who is in my heart now? YOu?? or YOu??? I dunno.. I can just say that there is a girl in my heart now but honestly I dun want you to be unhappy. I know that I will have no chance to be with them but what I hope is just that you will be happy in their current life. That day someone ask me who is it? She also ask me to try.. (belum try belum tau, sudah try hari hari mau) she tell me this.. but I know what is going to happen if I try. We will be no longer friends anymore. I dun want to miss a friend like you. I can see that you are having a happy life now and I really dun wish to spoil it. As long as you feel happy, I will be happy too.

Maybe I am really stupid in relationship. I admit that I am lack of confidence in relationship. I do not have a handsome face that many of them do have. What I want is just a simple relationship. I am bored with my current life. Have you ever try before that all of your housemate is in a relationship. When you wake up, you will be the only one at home. Or when you go out with them, all of them will be busy with their couple and left you alone there walking alone. Have anyone try this before? THIS IS WHAT I M FACING NOW!!

I am not rich. What I want is all my friends can live happily. I am happy that I have many friends here in Penang. Time passes very fast and we only have 8 more months to be together. I really miss you all and happy to know all of you.

I just feel that I am damn lonely now. I have friends here. But sometimes Friends is not what I want for my current life. But seriously, Thanks to all my friends that accompany me when I am sick.
THanks Jun Yang, Melody, Glanned, Shu Pei, Peng Seong, Foo, Mars and so on.. there are too many people that I wanna thanks but cant really mention it all here.. THANKS!!!