My Current Life

Its has been a long time i didnt update my blog. Recently not that happy in my life. Busy with assignments, presentation and so on..

Recently met you and contact back with you, cant describe my feeling. I dunno am I happy when I see you or during that time what is my feeling? I really dunno. What I know is just I wish to help you for everything. I still loving you? I dunno. I really dunno...

At last I finish all my assignments and presentation. Now is time to start study for my final exam. Media Law, International Politics ... damn it.. how can I memories all the notes?? I HATE MEMORIES THINGS!!!

Who is in my heart now? YOu?? or YOu??? I dunno.. I can just say that there is a girl in my heart now but honestly I dun want you to be unhappy. I know that I will have no chance to be with them but what I hope is just that you will be happy in their current life. That day someone ask me who is it? She also ask me to try.. (belum try belum tau, sudah try hari hari mau) she tell me this.. but I know what is going to happen if I try. We will be no longer friends anymore. I dun want to miss a friend like you. I can see that you are having a happy life now and I really dun wish to spoil it. As long as you feel happy, I will be happy too.

Maybe I am really stupid in relationship. I admit that I am lack of confidence in relationship. I do not have a handsome face that many of them do have. What I want is just a simple relationship. I am bored with my current life. Have you ever try before that all of your housemate is in a relationship. When you wake up, you will be the only one at home. Or when you go out with them, all of them will be busy with their couple and left you alone there walking alone. Have anyone try this before? THIS IS WHAT I M FACING NOW!!

I am not rich. What I want is all my friends can live happily. I am happy that I have many friends here in Penang. Time passes very fast and we only have 8 more months to be together. I really miss you all and happy to know all of you.

I just feel that I am damn lonely now. I have friends here. But sometimes Friends is not what I want for my current life. But seriously, Thanks to all my friends that accompany me when I am sick.
THanks Jun Yang, Melody, Glanned, Shu Pei, Peng Seong, Foo, Mars and so on.. there are too many people that I wanna thanks but cant really mention it all here.. THANKS!!!

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最近的我开心吗？

我真的过的开心？

我开始跟你说话了, 这到底是好事还是坏事？

最近做工都看到读幼稚园的小孩子们天真的笑容，突然感觉到做一个小孩真好。他们还小，什么都不会，根本就不可能有烦恼。每一天一直都在笑，我好羡慕他们。

我该怎么办？　

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只希望你过得开开心心!!

一切都不重要了!!

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好久没update了。 有人问我，为何这样对你，很简单，原因就是我还喜欢你。请问我可以怎么做？当作若无其事吗？对不起，我真的不可以。 我也很想把你给放下，我就是办不到。听到你和他开始了这个消息后，在别人的眼里我更本没有问题。可是每当我回到家一个人在房间的时候，我的心有多么的痛。我已经尽量不让你难做人了，我和他已经有说有笑了。

这几天听了tank的如果我变成回忆，我突然想到如果我变成回忆有人会想念我吗？到底在我身旁的有哪几个是真心的朋友？如果要用一首歌来形容我的感受，我想罗志祥的搞笑真的很适合。那首歌的歌词就好像我想说的话。

对不起我把你弄得这么辛苦。我希望没有人责怪你啦！我知道你更本没有错，错的不是你。是我，是我喜欢了不该喜欢的人。是我明明喜欢你可是就没有胆量去承认。是我把你给弄哭了。真的对不起。。。

我真的很想念你！！！

开心与不开心

今天是新学期的第一天，有开心也有不开心的事。开心是我可以看到我的朋友们，我们又可以一起出去玩，一起读书或喝茶了。不开心的就是我的成绩。我在韩江已经快要两年了。我也很不幸的有一个科目不及格。不能怪谁，只能怪自己。

我今天真得很怕看到你。看到你不知该和你谈什么或应该如何。真得很怕，我选择逃避。我知道这不是一个办法，可是我别无选择。我不可能看到你和他一起，而我就当作什么事都没发生过。对不起，我办不到。我知道你上个学期的成绩还不错，加油！！

新学期了，希望所有朋友们都能尽情的享受这个学期吧！加油！！

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三个星期的假期就快过完了，这三个星期里差不多每天多是在家无聊着。每一天都在想着该不该sms你。正不知该如何好。。。

假期里到了云顶去，也‘捐’了钱给他的老板。 真可悲!!

成绩要公布了，很害怕！！ 我想应该不是很好。。

也不知该写什么好，只知道还是很想念她！！

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正在过着假期的我好无聊。 说真的我有点讨厌假期，因为它让我的生活过的好闷。要去玩又没钱，朋友大部分都不在这里了，都在外地或外国。

我终于有勇气回你信息了。听说你生病了， 好好照顾自己哦！晚上就早点休息啦，没有说什么不能的，只要你肯就一定能。说真的，已经一个星期了。我还是好想你！

假期才过了一个星期，还有两个星期我要做什么好。 突然觉得我的人生好无聊。

无聊的我

无奈的我

没钱的我

伤心的我